Reply To: Personal Experiences of first becoming aware of our ‘spiritual self’

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    Rex Barker

    21 October 2023 at 11:51 am

    I first became aware of the nature of reality at the age of 5 which is probably the best way to identify my spiritual awareness and the beginning of my journey. I will say at this point that the journey itself has been one where I had no intention of seeking such experiences, but they seemed to arise when I was ready to understand their significance. So..

    My family had just moved into a permanent home from the temporary post war Nissen hut that we occupied before. The apartment was bigger and we had separate rooms instead of the divided spaces and outside toilet. As was often the case the ‘front room’ was the lounge and we children were not allowed in there unless with our parents. One day everyone else was out and I was alone, so naturally I went into the room and played on the armchairs and sofa. At one point I stepped of the back of the sofa and instead of falling to the ground seemed to hover in space for a moment before falling. It was enough time to recognise what had happened, and it puzzled me. I couldn’t understand what had happened and left the room soon after. In bed that evening I remembered what had happened and wondered why. I can still remember the brief thought stream – why did I not fall? – we should but I didn’t – I didn’t because we don’t HAVE to fall – I only fell after that moment because that was what we should do – so if that is true then it also must be true that we only do things because we are told to – this means that everything we do could be different, and yet if that is true then I would go mad deciding in every moment WHAT to do! This is too much, it is best of I do what I am supposed to until I know enough to make choices.

    I then went to sleep and forgot all about the incident until it suddenly came back to me when I was 30 and encouraged to read ‘Jonathan Livingston Seagull’ by Richard Bach. My spiritual journey had already begun by then, inspired when I was adopted by an aboriginal tribe in Sarawak.